These past couple of weeks have just been terrible! First off, one of our cats was diagnosed with Feline Leukemia. She was so sick. Not eating, barely moving, super skinny and bony. Took her to the vet and they gave her some medicine then the next day she was diagnosed with that. We had planned to put her down but as if by some miracle, the day of her appointment for that....she was suddenly moving around, walking and meowing at the vet. I didn't find that out till later. I had gone to bed when my stepdad took her in. So I had gone to bed thinking she would be gone when I woke up for work. I was so sad. But then when I woke up, I saw her in her usual spot in the back hallway! I started crying and petting her. She started meowing and she got up and was walking around. I'm glad she's still with us. She's getting a lot better and eating more and more!
On Saturday, 7-23, we took my car in to get fixed....they fixed a lot of things on it. It cost about a thousand dollars!! I don't even make a thousand dollars in a month. I have so many bills that need to be paid off now that I'll never be able to save any money to move out of my parents house. Honestly, what I need is a new job. But I can't seem to find anything. I know it's really hard to find a job out there. I mean just becuase I put in an application, doesn't mean it's going to get looked at! It's my one application against probably 100 other people vying for the same position! But all I can do is keep trying. What really ticks me off is that they were supposed to fix the belts on my car but last night, I started my car up and the screeching noise (which was the problem to begin with) started up again! And then it was going all night long while I was delivering papers! Every time I turned the wheel, everytime I braked to stop then pressed the gas to go again, waiting at a stop light to turn, the light turned green and I pressed the gas, it squealed sooooo loud that I was afraid to even drive! I pulled into a driveway on the street I was on and let it sit for a few moments. It stopped squealing so I was able to drive again. I was sooo pissed off by the end of the night. Now we gotta take the car back to the place and I'm probably going to end up having to pay another 500 dollars for whatever it is! Someone buy me a new car!
I'm also a bit depressed becuase of all that but also becuase I had to tell a guy I was really in to that he and I couldn't be together becuase I'm going through so much. He lives in Orlando and he was going to wait for me to get everything in order, find a new job and move up there with him. But we haven't met yet and neither of us can go to the other. I don't have a car during the day and I don't get days off from work. And he was just recently put in to a new position at work. He pretty much just wakes up, helps out with grandma, goes to work then comes home and sleeps. We barely get to talk anymore. I told him that we couldnt be together becuase it's not fair to him to have to wait for me when there are girls available where he is at and he doesn't have to wait for them. I really had my heart set on him but priorities come first.
I've also been trying to lose weight but I just can't stop eating!! I crave everything! Mostly salty foods. Nothing seems to help. Not even chewing gum or brushing my teeth. It doesn't stop me from grabbing food. I've searched online for some healthy salty snacks but all I get is stuff like almonds, chick peas, tortilla chips, sweet potato fries.....all stuff I can't have. I can't go buy healthy foods like that. I don't eat potato chips or junk food. My problem is sandwhich meat, cheese, pizza, salad dressing, fruit and chocolate bars. It doesn't sound too bad but eating too much of all that IS bad. I need a muzzle or something. Exercise is a bit hard to do too. I'm self conscious so I don't want to walk outside (I never wear shorts so I'd have to wear pants and it's too damn hot out for that!). We have a treadmill that I use sometimes. But I'm unable to run or be on my knees due to an injury I had to them a few years ago. Even kneeling causes severe pain in them. I want to be thin and be happy for once.
This all may sound like complaining but that's what blogs are for, yes?
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